Tread Lightly

You’ve been searching a long time now.  Somewhere along the way,

you pause.  You begin to notice the intricacies of every texture,

the textures of every intricacy.

All the magic you overlooked becomes discernible.  How could you have missed it?

It is at once ordinary and extraordinary, astonishing and unremarkable,

poetic and prosaic.

Seeing this, you give up chasing after dragonflies

that vanish the moment you find them.

You give up the search, the quest, the chase, the pursuit.

Relief.  At the riverbank you allow yourself to rest.

Not Rip Van Winkle’s sleep of oblivion, but a deep rest in awareness.

Eventually you rise, stretch lavishly, yawn imperially.

Making your way along the path, you tread more lightly than ever,

beholding – no, absorbing – the wonder of life on earth,

as translated through human senses.

You separate the sounds, hearing each one in singularity

before listening to the unified whole of all the sounds combined.

You taste the watercress, the blackberry, the squash blossom, the herbs. 

And then you continue to make your way down this forest path

alongside the flowing river, treading as lightly as possible

until you discover the space between pleasant and unpleasant,

harmonious and discordant, thrill and disappointment.

Now you have moved beyond.  Beyond what?

Beyond the realm of opposites, the arena of duality.

Naturally there will be a return journey – you’re only human, after all.

But for now, you keep going, as joyfully as possible,

in a freedom born of simple astonishment,

with a recognition of the holy presence in all things,

at peace in the acceptance that any day now, up around

any bend, you might meet death upon the road.   

Service Worker

Service Worker

We may not live to see the harvest,

gather the bounty, savor the meal,

or enjoy the kindly shade of the tree.

These may all very well

be the province of others.

So let us not forget our purpose,

overlook the importance of our labor,

neglect to take notice of our responsibility

or be blind to our blessings

in the patient growing of things,

the careful choosing of words,

the daily provision of nourishment.  

May we observe

the wisdom of the camel,

who teaches well how to kneel,

how to work, carry water.

C.M. Rivers

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Up the Withalacoochee

Strange, how there’s no money in bending

spoons, levitating, walking through walls, eating fire.

Stranger still, the mind’s tireless insistence

on returning to the same vault of memory: 

a woven hammock bleached by the sun,

beach glass, the texture of a Van Gogh,

metallic oysters, cold beer, fried shrimp,

French vanilla ice cream.

Strangest of all, perhaps, are the fingerprints, bones,

poetry – the circumstantial evidence all around us,

everywhere we go, all our lives.

Take, for instance, the decaying wood

of this old canoe, once paddled

by my father’s hands up the Withalacoochee

to a hidden crystal spring, his long toes

hanging on to their cheap sandals.

Every bit of wood poking up

through the surface of the water

an alligator in my imagination,

every cypress tree along the bank

a bent grandmother of my boyhood.

The hours of that summer too free

to be measured, the days too wild to be held.

Journeys undocumented, stories untold.

The perils of being at sea too long,

the price of coming ashore, no match

for the danger of missing a siren song,

never casting adrift, never charting a course.

Stone Lion

The face of the stone lion

has turned white due to weather and time,

two things I understand very little of,

being neither meteorologist nor physicist.

I only know that he reminds me

of a Celtic warrior about to pick a fight,

milky streaks spreading

through the dark copper of his mane.

A stone lion is the best kind of lion to have,

for he requires no meat

and will never turn on you.

Being stone, he looks no more tired

than he did all those years ago.

I admire his dignified silence,

and wish I were more like him,

hardly effected by weather and time.

Maybe then the sun I’m sitting in

wouldn’t feel like it had to work so hard

to beat back the gloom of eventuality.

For the moment, though,

I somehow get hold of slippery acceptance

and wrestle it in close,

effort in one hand, surrender in the other.

For the moment, he comforts me,

ever gazing at the garden before him,

neither its conqueror nor its servant,

a snail passing before his feet

like a tourist at a monument.

High Road

Once you have traveled

             in the four directions,

  along the main thoroughfare,

             and spent a good deal of time

  on back roads and side roads,

             putting one foot in front

  of the other until you reach

             a measure of satisfaction,

  it is possible you might find

             a clear idea of why you set out

  in the first place, so long ago.

             That’s the high road –  

  from which you can look

              beyond yourself and see

  how the course you take

              converges with the others. 

  The cartography of your choices

              that seemed before to hold

  no pattern – the direction of

              your footsteps, how

  they brought you here at last. 

Beginner’s Mind

Beginner’s Mind

Spirit of breath and practice, holy mystery of movement and stillness,

grant me the discipline to just sit here, though the old fires still burn in me.

Grant me the wisdom to remain plainspoken at the doorstep of the mind’s

entanglements.  Let me keep a balanced, empty mind.

Grant me patience, not only for my own sake, but for the sake of others.

Wherever I am, may I not lose the sight to truly see the colors, forms, shapes

all around me, then and there.

And whenever I walk, may I have the sense to notice the soles of my feet

touching the ground, meeting the earth – even when they are housed in shoes.

Net Man

Net Man originally appeared in the spring of 2020 in poem form, in Crosswinds Poetry Journal in Rhode Island. The piece also called out to me to be written in a form that is part Personal Essay and part Prose Poem, which is what appears here.

“The point is that he had – as we all do in given measures – an unknowable wildness.”

My grandpa was a net man. Never mind how well I knew him, never mind how much I loved him, the point is that he used rope, wove nets with his hands, hands I loved so much I never knew how to say it.

My grandpa was a net man, he was a talker and he was a storyteller. His life was woven with stories as much as it was with rope and he told those stories in a rich gravy voice. He talked about picking rows of cotton as a farm boy in Georgia during the Great Depression.

I think everyone should have to pick a row of cotton sometime in their life, just to know what it feels like.”

He talked about going down to the Palace Saloon as a boy and easing his mother off of a bar stool, slinging her over his shoulder and carrying her home, talked about being given a choice when he was just a little kid – a choice that would shape the rest of his life: “You wanna go to school, or you wanna go fishin’?”

He talked about World War 2. I listened closely when he talked about the bomb that came down the ship’s smokestack, how he was sent down into the belly of the ship with a burlap sack. I shouldn’t have listened so well, my grandpa was a net man.

He talked about his shrimp boat and the Gulf of Mexico in the 1950’s, when he was known as Captain Buddy. Talked about Veracruz Havana Brownsville Key West South America, having his ear pierced by a prostitute in Campeche, discovering abandoned boats with blood-spattered decks out on the Gulf, my grandpa was a net man. Sometimes the nets were full of shrimp, he said, sometimes the nets were full of shrimp bound up with seaweed and trash, sometimes the nets contained nothing but pieces of junk, he said, sometimes the nets didn’t have a damn thing in ’em.

My grandpa was a net man, never mind his T-bone steaks.  Never mind his nine machetes and his earring and how the gators slithered up into his yard from the Withalacoochee River, the canoe my dad and I would paddle upriver to a crystal spring hidden away among cypress trees, their roots dipping into the water’s edge like fingers on an old witch’s hand.

Never mind how the short fuse of his youth alchemized into the easy way he had about him later in life, never mind that his childhood nickname was Junebug, that his wife made the best red velvet cake you’d ever set a fork upon, that when I was twelve years old he talked me into eating a Scotch bonnet off his pepper bush and then laughed and laughed.

The point is that he had – as we all do in given measures – an unknowable wildness. The point is that for 92 years he touched people’s lives without ever once trying to, the point is that now he really has crossed the Gulf, the point is that in the still of the night he left the world and by left I mean he’s gone and by world I mean all of this, I mean the crescendo of his life swept back down in a broad arc and mass overtook energy.

But before the crosswinds took him, he was a net man.  I knew it to be true, because he was often out in his workshop making nets.  I knew it to be true, because I had lingered on every page of his old photo albums, and it said so right there on the license plate of his old jeep: NET MAN.

He had been a shrimper himself and worked with the nets for years. So when he opened a net shop in 1960, down in Key West, he knew what to do. The shape and size and type of net he made depended on where the shrimper would be trawling, what kind of boat they drove. He worked the rope not only with his hands but with an understanding of what was needed, the intimate knowledge that comes with time spent close to the heart of the work itself.

The nets were dragged along the ocean floor by trawlers, but before that they drifted down, down through the briny seawater. And before that, they had to be made – fashioned – from the rope that passed through the fingers of my grandfather’s hands. Hands I loved so much, I never knew how to say it.

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